My first blog! ❤️

Justice, equality… and laughter.

It’s what I think matters most in life. I think the world needs more of these things.

I was inspired by Zoe Sugg. I read her book: “Girl Online” (check it out, its really good!) It made me really want to start a blog.

I was inspired by her; she used the blog for the one thing I’ve always wanted to do: Be myself.

I’m a teenager. We’re surrounded by technology and social media. But, even in day to day life we’re constantly in fear of being judged; both by people we respect and even call our “friends”, as well as by others we don’t associate ourselves with.

I’m not writing this blog to gain millions of followers. I’m doing this for ME. I want somewhere where I can be myself. So, if you want to know why I’m writing this blog? It’s because I want somewhere where I can be honest; somewhere where I can say how I really feel – without being judged.

Now, back to those three words.

Justice: Now, I sometimes think of this as people who have been nasty and done terrible things should be punished. But, if I thought the opposite, people who are generous and kind hearted people should also be granted with amazing opportunities!

Equality: People always go on about how footballers are paid too much, it’s so unfair etc. But, that’s in general; in the big world, or our country, at least. But, even in each of our daily lives; we’re constantly compared to others; or we compare OURSELVES to others! It’s a vicious circle of: Thinking we look okay, or are saying or doing the right thing – Then, we compare ourselves to someone who’s “better” – then we’re dragged down by the feeling of not being “good enough”. But, WE ARE ALL EQUAL! WE ALL DESERVE THE RIGHT TO BE HAPPY AND LIVE OUR LIFE AS WE WANT TO!

No one is in charge of yourself, except YOU.

So, if you can take one thing away from my blog, it’s to BE YOURSELF! Come on here; join me! Let’s celebrate that we can be ourselves!

Goodbye! No, wait. Where’s the good in goodbye? Hmm.. I want an easy catchphrase to end with that people will remember…

So, let’s work our way through this misty fog… Until my next blog!

– M

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I tried my best to support and comfort my mum when she was having a hard time.

⭐️ 2. I’ve tried to talk and spend time with my sister and it’s been pleasant – Ideally I’d like to do this more often!

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To try to come up with more ideas for my scripts, and try to remain positive whenever I can.““

Have I achieved this? Not exactly. I’ve struggled to come up with ideas for my scripts, but I did write one scene recently so that’s a positive, I guess!

I’ve had many moments this week where I haven’t remained positive, but I have tried my best, and tried to help my mum be positive too, but it’s very difficult for the both of us when we’re both going through such a hard time. 😦

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To try to do bits of scripts writing whenever possible, and spend more time with my sister (and family).”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

-MW❤️

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I’ve managed to stay (mostly) calm and not self harmed with the situation surrounding my father.

⭐️ 2. My counsellor was proud of me for emailing my father, and said I’d been honest and it’s the most I’d opened up!

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To continue working on my scripts, and try to remain as calm and as positive as possible.”

Have I achieved this? Kind of. I’ve been struggling to come up with ideas for my scripts, but am still writing when I can!

I’ve had many moments this week where I haven’t remained calm or positive, but I have tried!

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “To try to come up with more ideas for my scripts, and try to remain positive whenever I can.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

-MW❤️

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Sorry I’m a bit late!

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. My cousin messaged me and said she’d like to hang out, just the two of us! Made me so happy! 😊😁

⭐️ 2. I’ve not self harmed still. I had some difficult things happen, when if they’d happened last year, I would’ve self harmed instantly! I didn’t even think about it!!

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To be as positive as possible and continue working on my scripts.”

Have I achieved this? Mostly. I have managed to continue working on my scripts, and have tried to keep as positive as possible! Did well when spreading positive and reassuring others in their time of need, but not so much with myself! But could be worse!

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To continue working on my scripts and try to remain as calm and as positive as possible.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

-MW❤️

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Sorry I’m a bit late! Big weekend with my sister in hospital!

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I continued writing my scripts when facing difficulties and challenges.

⭐️ 2. I’ve tried to be kind and look after my sister (and will do so this week when she’s recovering).

Last week’s wish was: “🌠”To work out how to finish my scripts etc, and to keep positive and calm as often as possible.”

Have I achieved this? Partly. I have managed to continue working on my scripts, and have tried to keep calm mostly, but not always succeeded.

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To be as positive as possible and continue working on my scripts.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

– MW❤️

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I looked after my sister when she was ill.

⭐️ 2. I had many difficult moments, but DIDN’T SELF HARM! 😁

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To continue working hard on my scripts, and continue to keep calm when times get rough.”

Have I achieved this? Partly. I have worked hard on my scripts, though have reached a stand still and unsure how to go on from here!

I have tried to keep calm mostly but not always succeeded.

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “To work out how to finish my scripts etc, and to keep positive and calm as often as possible.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

– MW❤️

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I continued to work hard and finished the next episode of my scripts!This is great, but I need to keep up this hard work!!

⭐️ 2. I had many difficult moments, but DIDN’T SELF HARM! 😁

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To talk to my counsellor and find a way to send a script to the contact via email. (Doesn’t have to be this week necessarily.)

To try to keep calm and not pressure myself when feeling low. But keep positive!

To push myself to work hard (or harder!) on my scripts!”

Have I achieved this? Partly. I didn’t talk to my counsellor about sending the script to the contact, but will try to find the courage to next time. I have tried to keep calm and not pressure myself when I’m feeling down. I’ve not been working as hard as I should have been on my scripts, but I’ve just finished the next episode, so I’ve got to keep up the hard work!

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To continue working hard on my scripts, and continue to keep calm when times get rough.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

– MW❤️

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I replied to a contact about my future career! I’d emailed the course leader I went on asking for tips on my future. Gotta take a big step and share my script with him. HOW? 😭😱

⭐️ 2. I had many difficult moments and very low mood, but DIDN’T SELF HARM- Resisted the urges and didn’t give in!! 😁

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To research more with my sister about LinkedIn, future, contacts etc. To spend more time with family; games, cinema, or whatever activity is suitable.”

Have I achieved this? Not exactly. I have replied to the email about my future, but not much research etc. Today was my grandad’s birthday so our family spent some time together. But have equally had some rough moments with family too.

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To talk to my counsellor and find a way to send a script to the contact via email. (Doesn’t have to be this week necessarily.)

To try to keep calm and not pressure myself when feeling low. But keep positive!

To push myself to work hard (or harder!) on my scripts!”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

– MW❤️

Contemplating, confused and mixed thoughts (personal post!)

My sister told me last night she’s found our dad’s side of the family on Facebook. -long story short haven’t exactly seen or spoken to my dad in 5 years, he pretty much walked out on us when I was 4 and my sister was 6, but saw him now and then.

He only gives me pocket money that’s our only contact, and he’s stopping that in July and basically told me he’s cutting me off.

We found out in 2010 he’d been lying to us and had been seeing a woman behind our backs. My sister found his partner on FB and 8 years later they’re not married and don’t have kids! Not to be rude, she’s quite large and has many mental problems, more “severe”/different to depression. She can’t have kids either.

I thought cutting me off was hurtful, he’d obviously got a new family with new kids replacing us. But he hasn’t?!

I’m so confused! Should I be more hurt that he now had NO reason to leave us? Should I be pleased?

He CHOSE to walk out on us. For the last 5 years he’s CHOSEN to be with a larger woman who can’t have kids than me, my sister and my mum?

Not expecting advice as I can’t explain the full situation. But just needed to vent.

Yesterday was the worst day in a long while and today I had an email about a contact to help me get a job, and now this?!

I’m so confused. Such mixed feelings…

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I’ve discussed my future with my sister and emailed the course leader I went on asking for tips on my future! – Even if I don’t hear back, I still did it and took that step. 🙂

⭐️ 2. I gave my sister and mum (separate) personal, meaningful gifts and they appreciated them!

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To continue working hard on my scripts, and try to be more positive, show gratitude, and be calmer.”

Have I achieved this? Mostly. I have tried to work hard on my scripts.

I’ve had some bad days, but I’ve tried to be positive and show gratitude and to keep as calm as possible, though haven’t always managed that!

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To research more with my sister about LinkedIn, future, contacts etc. To spend more time with family; games, cinema, or whatever activity is suitable.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

– MW❤️

Two Stars And A Wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. My sister was proud of me for the video editing projects I’ve been working on- She said I had talent! 😊

⭐️ 2. I’ve continued writing my tv series/scripts – If anyone knows how to get into the industry I’d appreciate any tips! Everything is in London and you have to have an agent or manager and I have neither.

Last week’s wish was: “To continue researching about my future, and try to be more positive, show gratitude, and be calmer.”

Have I achieved this? Partly. I haven’t researched about my future, but continued writing my scripts. I’ve had some bad days, but tried to be calmer and positive despite this!

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To continue working hard on my scripts, and try to be more positive, show gratitude, and be calmer.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

– MW❤️