Two Stars And A Wish! â­ď¸â­ď¸đŸŒ 

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I replied to a contact about my future career! I’d emailed the course leader I went on asking for tips on my future. Gotta take a big step and share my script with him. HOW? 😭😱

⭐️ 2. I had many difficult moments and very low mood, but DIDN’T SELF HARM- Resisted the urges and didn’t give in!! 😁

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To research more with my sister about LinkedIn, future, contacts etc. To spend more time with family; games, cinema, or whatever activity is suitable.

Have I achieved this? Not exactly. I have replied to the email about my future, but not much research etc. Today was my grandad’s birthday so our family spent some time together. But have equally had some rough moments with family too. :/

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To talk to my counsellor and find a way to send a script to the contact via email. (Doesn’t have to be this week necessarily.)

To try to keep calm and not pressure myself when feeling low. But keep positive!

To push myself to work hard (or harder!) on my scripts!

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

– MW❤️

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Contemplating, confused and mixed thoughts (personal post!)

My sister told me last night she’s found our dad’s side of the family on Facebook. -long story short haven’t exactly seen or spoken to my dad in 5 years, he pretty much walked out on us when I was 4 and my sister was 6, but saw him now and then.

He only gives me pocket money that’s our only contact, and he’s stopping that in July and basically told me he’s cutting me off.

We found out in 2010 he’d been lying to us and had been seeing a woman behind our backs. My sister found his partner on FB and 8 years later they’re not married and don’t have kids! Not to be rude, she’s quite large and has many mental problems, more “severe”/different to depression. She can’t have kids either.

I thought cutting me off was hurtful, he’d obviously got a new family with new kids replacing us. But he hasn’t?!

I’m so confused! Should I be more hurt that he now had NO reason to leave us? Should I be pleased?

He CHOSE to walk out on us. For the last 5 years he’s CHOSEN to be with a larger woman who can’t have kids than me, my sister and my mum?

Not expecting advice as I can’t explain the full situation. But just needed to vent.

Yesterday was the worst day in a long while and today I had an email about a contact to help me get a job, and now this?!

I’m so confused. Such mixed feelings…

Two stars and a wish! â­ď¸â­ď¸đŸŒ 

Today is 9 years since my dear cousin passed away. You’re still missed to this day. ❤️

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I completed some self compassion exercises which helped me a lot!

⭐️ 2. I helped my grandparents and then tidied my room – a big tidy of my room , it needed doing and is MUCH better now!)

Last week’s wish was: “To look for more work experience/jobs and CONTACT people. And continue trying to be positive and calm this week.”

Have I achieved this? Sort of. I did look for more work experience/jobs etc, but none yet. My sister said she’ll help me contact people and look again etc. I have been (mostly) more positive and calm on the whole, so that’s good!

I guess my long term wish is still: 🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “🌠To discuss my future with my sister and get her help to me contact people and look for jobs/work experience.”

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

Also, as a side note, my elderly relative who was in hospital-palliative care- passed away on Wednesday. Despite her being elderly, I will miss her dearly. She is a lovely woman and I’m very grateful and blessed to have known her. ❤️

– MW❤️

Two stars and a wish! â­ď¸â­ď¸đŸŒ 

Sorry I’m a day early! Hope you enjoy it though!

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

I think, if I’m honest, I’ve not had a particularly positive week, so I’ve struggled to come up with my ⭐️’s!

⭐️ 1. I managed to have a good birthday and have a lovely day with my family.

⭐️ 2. I have continued to be clean from self harm; 90 days! – Many negative things have happened this week, so I’m proud of myself for staying strong!

Last week’s wish was: “🌠 To continue to remain calm(er) and more positive.

And to be less self-conscious about how I look, especially as I’ve had my hair coloured and I’m not sure if it suits me!

And to enjoy my birthday, and try not to argue with my family so much.

Have I achieved this?Not exactly. I don’t think I’ve managed to be as calm or positive this week, if I’m totally honest. However, I’ve managed to find a way to make my hair suit me and be comfortable with how I look!

I did enjoy my birthday, but my sister and I have been tense for the last few days. :/

I guess my long term wish is still: 🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is again: 🌠 To try my best to be positive and calm, especially when times are tough.

Maybe look for more work experience if I’m able to.

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments!

– MW❤️

Two stars and a wish! â­ď¸â­ď¸đŸŒ 

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I’ve applied for a course – Not sure if I can do it, but I will definitely try!

⭐️ 2. Had a testing night with my anxiety as my mum and sister were in hospital all night! It was very difficult and I hardly slept, but I did it. And that’s an accomplishment!

Last week’s wish was: “🌠 To apply for the course, or find other work experience.

Have I achieved this? Yes, mostly. I have applied for the course which is a big step forward for me! I haven’t found any other work experience yet, but I will continue to look.

I guess my long term wish is still: 🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: 🌠 To continue to remain calm(er) and more positive.

And to enjoy my birthday, and try not to argue with my family so much.

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments!

Also, Happy Mother’s Day!

– MW❤️

Quote/Lyrics 1st August

“I got bills I gotta pay

So I’m gonna work, work, work every day

I got mouths I gotta feed

So I’m gonna make sure everybody eats

I got bills”

– “Bills” by Lunchmoney Lewis.

😢😊❤️

Comment your thoughts and feelings below! ♥️

So, let’s fight our way through this misty fog… Until my next blog!

– M