Two Stars And A Wish! â­ď¸â­ď¸đŸŒ 

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I’ve managed to stay (mostly) calm and not self harmed with the situation surrounding my father.

⭐️ 2. My counsellor was proud of me for emailing my father, and said I’d been honest and it’s the most I’d opened up!

Last week’s wish was: “🌠To continue working on my scripts, and try to remain as calm and as positive as possible.”

Have I achieved this? Kind of. I’ve been struggling to come up with ideas for my scripts, but am still writing when I can!

I’ve had many moments this week where I haven’t remained calm or positive, but I have tried!

I guess my long term wish is still:🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: “To try to come up with more ideas for my scripts, and try to remain positive whenever I can.

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments below!

-MW❤️

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Contemplating, confused and mixed thoughts (personal post!)

My sister told me last night she’s found our dad’s side of the family on Facebook. -long story short haven’t exactly seen or spoken to my dad in 5 years, he pretty much walked out on us when I was 4 and my sister was 6, but saw him now and then.

He only gives me pocket money that’s our only contact, and he’s stopping that in July and basically told me he’s cutting me off.

We found out in 2010 he’d been lying to us and had been seeing a woman behind our backs. My sister found his partner on FB and 8 years later they’re not married and don’t have kids! Not to be rude, she’s quite large and has many mental problems, more “severe”/different to depression. She can’t have kids either.

I thought cutting me off was hurtful, he’d obviously got a new family with new kids replacing us. But he hasn’t?!

I’m so confused! Should I be more hurt that he now had NO reason to leave us? Should I be pleased?

He CHOSE to walk out on us. For the last 5 years he’s CHOSEN to be with a larger woman who can’t have kids than me, my sister and my mum?

Not expecting advice as I can’t explain the full situation. But just needed to vent.

Yesterday was the worst day in a long while and today I had an email about a contact to help me get a job, and now this?!

I’m so confused. Such mixed feelings…

Two stars and a wish! â­ď¸â­ď¸đŸŒ 

I normally post this on Sundays, so sorry I’m a day late!

Two stars:

Stars are things I’ve done well or enjoyed etc, and a wish is something I want to achieve by next week.

⭐️ 1. I’m continuing to look for a job– No progress really, none near me and I have no qualifications which makes it so hard! (Any tips are useful!)

⭐️ 2. I’m trying to stay strong and not get upset by my father – personal details, but it’s so hard to not get upset and feel down and hurt by his actions!! I wanted to self harm and didn’t, so I’m proud of that too.

Last week’s wish was: “🌠 To continue looking for jobs (and ideally find one that suits me etc!)

Or to stay calm/more positive and sort out my birthday trip and my phone etc.

Am I? Have I achieved that this week?

Sort of. I have been looking for jobs, but I haven’t found one!

And the phone and birthday plans have completely gone out the window thanks to my father! 😦 So, I guess I got upset, but have remained strong. So, yes and no to achieving the wish!

I guess my long term wish is still: 🌠 To find a job.

This week’s wish is: 🌠 To remain calm and sort out a realistic solution to my phone and birthday issues, and finish things with my father.

And to continue looking for jobs – get my sister to help me finish my CV and give it to companies and employers etc. And keep asking people for help, and apply for work experience somewhere!

What are your two stars and a wish? Let me know in the comments!

– MW❤️

Last week’s post: February 18th Two stars and a wish! ⭐️⭐️🌠 Please let me know if the link doesn’t work as I’m not good at adding links!